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notfoul

I see. Is there anything I can do for you?

From:

hairspraying

do you want to go out? I know it's kinda late, but man, after those nightmares and then they had me in a collar, I just need to get out I think

From:

notfoul

I'd be happy to join you anywhere you want to go to. Offer you a distraction from such an awful experience. Just let me know where to meet you.

From:

hairspraying

maybe just the park? we can stop at the bodega across the street if we need anything

From:

notfoul

The park would be fine. I can meet you at the entrance and we can find somewhere to sit down.

I can bring a flask of something strong if you want.

From:

hairspraying

honestly that would be perfect

meet you there in fifteen?

From:

notfoul

Good. It might take the edge off for you.

I will see you in fifteen minutes.

From:

hairspraying

[He's got a light jacket on, but his typical jeans and collared shirt, waiting outside of the opening of the park. He's pacing back and forth, though just being outside has him feeling not as restless as he's been the last day or so.]

From:

notfoul

[Thomas decides to not wear his regular suit jacket, just a shirt and trousers with a long coat pulled over it. Despite the time of year, there is a still light chill in the air. He arrives within fifteen minutes and makes his way over to Steve once he spots him. Offering a slight smile, Thomas gestures to the entrance of the park.]

Hello, Steve. Shall we?

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hairspraying

Hey. [He manages a genuine smile even if it's short lived. A hand goes through his hair before giving a nod toward the path that leads into the park.]

I'm glad to see you. I meant to send you a message before we were supposed to all leave.

From:

notfoul

[Turning on his heel, Thomas starts to walk towards the path and waits for Steve to join him.]

How thoughtful of you to want to send me a message. I won't ask what it would have said, but it is nice to see you also.

From:

hairspraying

[He manages to make it to his side with a half smile, a hand running through his hair. He's still feeling that sort of restlessness, but things are starting to return to normal in the city as it always did.]

Yeah, I remember how you said things were for you back home. And seeing as we didn't have a choice--

It just seemed shitty. [And Steve was also dealing with nightmares about some super powerful big bad turning his town into actual hell. But the thought was there.]

From:

notfoul

[He's not the best person at comforting others, but he rests his hand on Steve's arm for a moment to reassure him that he wasn’t going anywhere. The strong drink should help otherwise.]

It was shitty as you say. I think I've told you before that I prefer this place for a lot of reasons – I wouldn't want to leave by force.

[There were people that he missed of course, but it was a very small number.]

We can talk about something else if you prefer.

From:

hairspraying

[The pat on his arm gets a small smile from him. He doesn’t need a whole lot of actual comfort, and the flask probably helps more than he would admit. Once the cap is off, he takes a swig. Another sweep of his hair, and he takes a breath.]

Yeah, yeah. Maybe. I guess I don’t even know what else to talk about. I’m still kind of shaken up, and it sucks because no one from home is here, and the one person who was, I’m pretty sure he died and didn’t tell me.

From:

notfoul

[ Thomas decides to let Steve hold onto the flask for the time being, feeling that the younger man may need it more than he did. He walks at a leisurely pace, making sure that Steve doesn't fall out of step beside him. ]

I am sorry to hear that about your friend. Perhaps he didn't want to upset you, Steve. I don't have anyone from home either, so I understand that it can be difficult at times.

[He smiles wryly.]

Even if not everyone from my home likes my company.

From:

hairspraying

Yeah, that's what I'm thinking. I just wish I got to... say something before he left here.

[That's probably one of the things he's struggling with. He takes another quick drink before offering it back to Thomas, not wanting to hog it.]

Really? [That's almost a shock to him, though he has talked about how things were different for him back home, being harder to open up.]

Well if they showed up here, I'm sure they'd think different. That is one of the good things about this place. It's not home. [For most people that was a good thing.]

From:

notfoul

Then I'm also sorry for that.

[Thomas is assuming they were quite close, based on what Steve had said so far. When the flask is offered to him, he takes it with a smile and swigs from it.]
Really.

[He swigs from the flask again.]

Maybe they would think differently. However, I'm not so sure some of them would adjust so easily to this place. They're very...stuck in their ways.

From:

hairspraying

Thanks. [He sighs, knowing it's something he might just have to deal with. If he ever does see Eddie again though, he'll be a lot more appreciative.]

We just keep losing a lot of people. [And with whatever it is he's seen, he doesn't think it's over.]

Well the one thing about Duplicity is we don't have a lot of choices. They'd have to accept it or end up in People Zoo or Realignment. [Both of which he has now experienced in the last two months.]

I wouldn't wish those on anyone.

From:

notfoul

We do. [Thomas nods with agreement.] My submissive left quite recently.

And you're right about us not having a lot of choice either. Despite how they feel about me, I also wouldn't want them to go through any of those experiences. So I suppose I'd have to help them adjust to the rules here.

[He holds the flask out towards Steve, glancing around for a place to sit.]

But I don't know for certain if anyone I know will ever come here.

From:

hairspraying

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. [He's been lucky that he's had Yelena the whole time he's needed a contract, but he has heard about this, and it seems like such a pain.

Steve takes the flask and takes another drink, he's heading toward one of the gazebos that has benches. With the flowers starting to bloom, it is nice out.]

Yeah, I'm in the same boat. I mean Eddie was here, but he was only here for a couple months. I kinda hope the kids I know don't ever show up here. But I was the only one from home before Eddie came, and now I'm the only one again. So I guess... it just is what it is. And if anyone else shows up, I guess we'll help where we can then.

But I think they'd rather see someone they know here than not. Because sometimes this place gets rough, and it would just be nice to have someone, you know? [Not that he isn't appreciative of people like Thomas, because he didn't have to come out there, but home is still home.]

From:

notfoul

Thank you. Hopefully, I'll find someone else. [Thomas knows he has a few months, but he'd feel better the sooner he gets another contract.

He notices where Steve is headed and makes his way over. It was a lovely spot.]

Having a familiar face around can certainly help with the transition into the city. Since I never found that for myself, I decided it would be easier to befriend others who came from a similar time period. And it was easier. They understood.

[Something that Thomas was very grateful for.]

You understand as well. Even if you are decades ahead of me.

From:

hairspraying

[Steve heads over to take a seat, sitting back on the bench so his back rests on the wooden backboard of the gazebo. He sighs, feeling the beginnings of the alcohol hitting him. Well at the very least this seems to be helping. He really did need to just get out and maybe talk it out with someone.]

Yeah, I’ve tried to do that, too. I know this place is like wildly different from your home, and you kinda arrived here like right when I just started accepting myself instead of ignoring what was happening. It’s definitely made some things easier here since.

From:

notfoul

[Thomas sits in the spot next to him, leaving enough room to breathe. The gazebo reminds him of the fancier parks he had visited back home with the Crawleys. When he served them tea and coffee.]

I'm glad you decided to accept yourself and found a way forward. It took me some time to not be afraid of my desires - part of me still felt I needed to hide, despite being so far away from home. I snuck around when making quota. Now? I'm much bolder.

[Pursuing whom and what he wanted.]

From:

hairspraying

I think it was figuring it all out. I mean there are gay people back home, but you don’t really see bisexual. And if you do they’re probably just made fun of in the same way gay people are.

[And here Steve likes the attentions from both genders as much.]

Then I kind of just had to be okay with that. Which I am. I don’t think about it a whole lot, but now I don’t really care who I end up with if I like them. I don’t need an excuse like aphros. Plus then it makes things feel… I don’t know? [A hand moves to the back of his head.] More genuine. Which is something I’ve been looking for even back home.

[He nods a little, more introspection coming out than even he’s aware of. Steve takes another drink and passes the flask again.]

Makes sense that you’d hide. You’d want to make sure you were safe. But I’m glad you’re more comfortable. We both deserve that.

From:

notfoul

[He falls silent as he listens to Steve, interested in what he had to say. Thomas had learned about different labels in the city and what people liked to use whenever they talked about whom they were attracted to.]

You're absolutely right. We do deserve it.

[Taking a sip from the flask, Thomas continues.]

Having a genuine connection with another person can be very fulfilling. I've discovered a few of those here already, and I want them to continue for as long as possible. The way I see it, you have to do all you can to make yourself happy. It took me a while to realise that.

[He pauses for a moment, wondering if he should expand on what he was thinking about.]

Anyway. I know you don't have any trouble in attracting the right kind of attention.